I’ve been thinking about my writing direction. What is it? what does it mean to me? Why is it important? All questions that I feel the need to answer. Yeah, I’m looking for the answers but I keep coming up short. What should be rather simple makes my heart race, brings confusion, frustration, and an anxiety.
I’m not completely sure what I want anymore or how to get here. What my goals are? how do I accomplish them? I need to take a step back, you know start to look at the situation differently. Take back that ‘ctrl’. Ctrl because I’ve been sitting with Sza’s new album of the same name and there is a connection. A refreshing sense of urgency like she is looking for something similar. Recalling experiences. Living through frustrations and failures. Being consumed by thoughts of inadequacy. So far the track, Anything is what resonates.
I went away for awhile again. A short reprieve from actually posting. I needed the space to concentrate on life. Going to a wedding, time with family, no internet it seemed like a good time to just suspend posting for awhile. I also wanted that last post to sit. Think about my current engagement. Improve my social media engagement and look to what’s next.
Life is like that sometimes you just have to play catch-up. For no other reason at all then you decided to take a few days and be lazy. So let me catch you up on how life has been for the past week and a half.
There was a vision for today’s post, but I’m just not feeling it. Waking up and taking in that we lost a legend, Chris Cornell, from Soundgarden puts me in a melancholy mood. I keep replaying the song Blackhole Sun as it is one that I constantly have in my rotation. The song centers me brings me peace and just helps me to focus. I’m reminded of how short life can be, the precious moments that we have are what’s most important. Right now not much is known of his death but we lost one of those unforgettable voices.