Quick bio: M. is a Project coordinator by day and a chaotic creator by night. Yes, he has an alter ego. He holds a Bachelors of science in biology. He’s moved from the lab to the office to improve the education of the future doctors of tomorrow. Follow him on Twitter @ss_headphones.
The Start: I’m pouring my heart, soul, and passion into the keyboard, trying to capture the thoughts and feel sing that race through my Mind as fast as the bars of a twists flow. Jumping, moving, hand motions like a rap performance that’s what I am talking about. That feeling when you just know what you are doing is making a difference. If not for you than someone else. A vision bigger than yourself. Much like one of my favorite passages from Common’s biography, One day it’ll all make sense,
What the name represents. Common. The everyday person. The everyday man. The common folk, the blue-collar worker. I strive to represent that in all I do.
Yeah, that quote hits home. Considering I am one person in a world of ~7 billion people there are many perspectives that I still need to experience. I’ve lost and found myself so many times that I have lost count. Music is what helps me center. It shapes my thoughts, actions, and choices. Gives me perspective. Songs allow for conversation. Music is one thing that most people can relate. The melodies and streams of consciousness that replay in my head like conversations give me perspective. Living in the moment, living to my best potential.
So who am I? I am many things. I am the author of a lifestyle blog that strives to be profound. I am empathetic toward the thoughts and concerns of others. I am a father, son, brother, lover, dreamer, creator and more. Let me give you a better picture. I am a person who is better at bearing my soul through conversation and dialogue so let’s have a conversation.
The Conversation: If we were having a conversation…….
Reader: Tell me about a little about yourself?
Me: I grew up and went to school in the midwest. A simple middle-class life. I’ve seen the struggles of being a young black male in the inner city and the life in the suburbs.
Reader: what about family?
Me: I’m married. I have a daughter and I am the oldest of four siblings. I am a generational or legacy child. Like some people are juniors(jr) and grandparents are seniors(SR), I’m the Fourth (IV).
Reader: That’s different
Me: Maybe a little, it’s also one of the reasons I do not use my full name.
Reader: So why use Chaoscream? Where did the name come from?
Me: The name is a reflection of a thought I had one day. A persona for me to use to separate my business professional life and my creative side. A representation of the creative anarchy that plays through my head. Think for a moment what do you think of when you consider the world and your place in it. A way to define and invent myself. A name that I did not have to be shamed or influence by a preconceived notion. Chaos representing the roller coaster of life, the struggle, and reality of the game. C.R.E.A.M (Cash, Rules, Everything, Around, Me), from the classic Wu-Tang Clan song. Think about that capturing the anarchy in life’s rat race. I’m forging my place. Does that make sense?
Reader: that’s heavy, Tell me what made you think of something so cerebral?
Me: well I am often cerebral. I’m an introvert by nature. A person who internalizes and empathizes in order to understand the world around me.
You wouldn’t understand, like one of my favorite songs by Nas, but I hope you do. A Small Sweater and Headphones is the world through my eyes. My perception. How I want to be perceived and how I want others to perceive me. The reality of a middle-class, college educated, married black man making his way in the world and the music that guides him. Join in the conversation.